i guess a blog is supposed to talk to an audience, but a lot of times it ends up being myself talking to myself. have to tell myself to keep working hard. be positive, if possible. or at least act positive to others. it’s easy to say “forget it, i’m done.” and just stop working and pass with mediocre results. i don’t know why i am pushing myself. just got to do it well. i can’t wait until i go to china. there are many places i want to visit, but they are all fairly far from nanjing. end of thoughts for tonight.