this is from the taiwanese movie “tropical fish”.
last time you said
you saw tropical fish in the oceans
when i was small, i was like you also
always believing the ocean was filled with tropical fish
after growing up, i finally know that these oceans
won’t have any tropical fish.
however, last flood
i surprisingly found this tropical fish calmly
swimming in the drain
don’t know where it came from.
i decided to give it to you
hope you will like it.
although, we never talked
i know you are a person that loves to dream.
actually i envy you
you can study without any worries
even take the entrance exam
these are things that i can never have.
a year ago, big brother made me give up advancing
to go work at a factory in kaohsiung.
over there, i fell in love with someone
but, i didn’t expect that
he and his friend would rape me.
i used to be a young girl with dreams and fantasies
now i don’t have any dreams left.
life’s journey is long
dreams won’t be enough
you should cherish what you currently have
work hard! face the road that you should take!
wish you a smooth journey on your entrance exam.
there’s going to be a new movie called “formosa betrayed.” it’s another movie about the 228 incident and white terror in taiwan. (last major movie was city of sadness by hou hsiao hsien in 1989). instead of being about a taiwanese family in that generation, this time it is about an american outsider that goes into taiwan and sees the conflict between the kmt and taiwanese. i really have mixed feelings about this. sure, it is nice that taiwan is getting some recognition, but the trailer looks like it’s going to be a brainless hollywood action conspiracy movie. also, don’t know whether it is good to bring this topic up again. the kmt party has already apologized for this, but the dpp party always brings it up again and again to show kmt corruption. there’s many examples of corruption on both sides, so i think they should stop dwelling on it. i guess it is just the most extreme, murdering tens of thousands of taiwanese. (it’s kind of like how china will always dislike japan for nanking.) i guess it is a good (or bad) time for this movie. china is gaining power and still has thousands of missiles aimed at taiwan. political mess in taiwan. and all that.
oh well, controversy!
humans took so much energy and work to invent logic to understand things. yet, human nature runs on something completely different. how illogical. why didn’t they just invent some other thought based on whatever human nature does?
people don’t make any sense at all. no logic. all random. no rules. completely illogical. how are we supposed to understand? no sense at all.
my first website in fourth grade was hosted on geocities. today, geocities has been shutdown. i will miss the days.
it’s weird. last time i used geocities was in middle school. yet, i still feel like a part of me has died with geocities.
what is happening? so obsessive. not good. need to fix. need to know the truth.
i think it’s really funny that a lot of cancer chemotherapy drugs are carcinogenic. kill cancer with cancer? maybe. but it works sometimes, so i guess that is okay. i eat cavity-fighting candy.