Monthly Archives: October 2009

this is from the taiwanese movie “tropical fish”.

阿強
你上次說
在海裡看到很多熱帶魚
小時候﹐我也和你一樣
一直以為海裡到處都是熱帶魚
長大後﹐才知道我們這裡的海
是不會有熱帶魚的
可是﹐上次淹水的時候
我發現這條熱帶魚竟然靜靜的
游在路旁的水溝裡
也不知道它是從哪裡來的
我決定把它送給你
希望你會喜歡
雖然﹐我們一直沒有說過話
可是
我知道你是一個愛做夢的人
其實我很羨慕你
你可以的無憂無慮唸書
甚至參加聯考
這些都是我所不能擁有的
一年前﹐大哥要我放棄升學
到高雄的工廠工作
在那裡﹐我愛上了一個人
可是﹐沒想到後來
他竟然和他的朋友一起強暴我
我曾經是一個愛幻想的女孩
可是
現在我已不再有任何夢想了
人生的路很長
光有夢想是走不動的
你應該好好珍惜你現在的一切
好好加油﹗面對你該走的路吧﹗
祝你聯考順利

ah qiang
last time you said
you saw tropical fish in the oceans
when i was small, i was like you also
always believing the ocean was filled with tropical fish
after growing up, i finally know that these oceans
won’t have any tropical fish.
however, last flood
i surprisingly found this tropical fish calmly
swimming in the drain
don’t know where it came from.
i decided to give it to you
hope you will like it.
although, we never talked
but
i know you are a person that loves to dream.
actually i envy you
you can study without any worries
even take the entrance exam
these are things that i can never have.
a year ago, big brother made me give up advancing
to go work at a factory in kaohsiung.
over there, i fell in love with someone
but, i didn’t expect that
he and his friend would rape me.
i used to be a young girl with dreams and fantasies
but
now i don’t have any dreams left.
life’s journey is long
dreams won’t be enough
you should cherish what you currently have
work hard! face the road that you should take!
wish you a smooth journey on your entrance exam.

there’s going to be a new movie called “formosa betrayed.” it’s another movie about the 228 incident and white terror in taiwan. (last major movie was city of sadness by hou hsiao hsien in 1989). instead of being about a taiwanese family in that generation, this time it is about an american outsider that goes into taiwan and sees the conflict between the kmt and taiwanese. i really have mixed feelings about this. sure, it is nice that taiwan is getting some recognition, but the trailer looks like it’s going to be a brainless hollywood action conspiracy movie. also, don’t know whether it is good to bring this topic up again. the kmt party has already apologized for this, but the dpp party always brings it up again and again to show kmt corruption. there’s many examples of corruption on both sides, so i think they should stop dwelling on it. i guess it is just the most extreme, murdering tens of thousands of taiwanese. (it’s kind of like how china will always dislike japan for nanking.) i guess it is a good (or bad) time for this movie. china is gaining power and still has thousands of missiles aimed at taiwan. political mess in taiwan. and all that.

oh well, controversy!

humans took so much energy and work to invent logic to understand things. yet, human nature runs on something completely different. how illogical. why didn’t they just invent some other thought based on whatever human nature does?

people don’t make any sense at all. no logic. all random. no rules. completely illogical. how are we supposed to understand? no sense at all.

Rest in Peace Geocities

my first website in fourth grade was hosted on geocities. today, geocities has been shutdown. i will miss the days.

it’s weird. last time i used geocities was in middle school. yet, i still feel like a part of me has died with geocities.

what is happening? so obsessive. not good. need to fix. need to know the truth.

i think it’s really funny that a lot of cancer chemotherapy drugs are carcinogenic. kill cancer with cancer? maybe. but it works sometimes, so i guess that is okay. i eat cavity-fighting candy.